I’ve been sitting at Deaconess Hospital in Spokane Washington this last week wondering if each day will be my Dad’s last one. Every morning I would walk in intending to be a bubble of joy . . . to push back the darkness. But at the end of the week, I awoke one morning with a negative dream and my thought patterns spiraled downward. Yikes!
That day I was NOT a bubble of joy! My mind seemed unable to focus or process information. I felt as though I were walking in a daze. I mechanically moved about the daily tasks, but never really engaged mentally. What a strange feeling!
The next day, I looked at my website. The latest post was “DO NOT FEAR!” As I read the post, it was like a fresh wind of the Holy Spirit blowing through my spirit. It blew out all the negative thoughts and emotions. I literally heaved a sigh of relief!
I meditated on those verses:
Do not Fear! Stand still. And see the salvation of the Lord.
Do not be afraid. Only believe, and she will be made well.
Yes, God has got this! I will not be afraid. I will not be moved by what I see. God will deliver us through this seemingly impossible situation! He is still on the throne!
My hope and prayer when I write and post these devotions is that someone will be blessed. I am delighted that this week that someone was me! Once again, joy has bubbled to the surface . . . come what may.